So...do you know THOSE days?? The days when you feel WORTHLESS.
I do.
The heartache is gigantic. Overwhelming.
Well, I found a cure!
Actually,
like a sick, stubborn child - I was "fed" the medicine
{thnx, my lovely, caring older brother Spirit}
I have a friend. We never really talk, all we do is smile to each other while in church on Sundays. I LOVE her! She is sweet, kind, caring. I'll call her - E!
E has been around <The Curch of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints> for a while...much longer then I.
She is faithful and strong.
She is not a member-YET
Few months ago she asked me how did I decide to get baptized.
I gave a very lame testimony.
Two days ago, after wrapping up my work, I laid down in my bed, looking at the sky {ceiling}...just thinking of - nothing!
My lovely friends!
A thought appeared in my mind out of nowhere - write to E! She is still waiting for a decent answer!
Instantly, I was in front of my computer again, typing.
Within 2 minutes I had an email composed - I just wrote and wrote...
...words, sentences, testimonies...
flooded my computer screen...
I typed
Spirit dictated
I sent that email.
Soon enough she replied.
She cried.
She was truly touched.
She shared with me her concernds.
The reasons why she is not baptized yet
I replied
And I was
HAPPY
I listened to the little voice
I shared my testimony
I talked about Gospel
And all of the sudden, the world was no longer COLD and DARK place
It was
BRIGHT
WARM
HAPPY
LOVING
JOYOUS
I reached out to help someone...and in the process, I helped myself! Magic formula I guess!
Thank YOU my beloved FATHER
Thank YOU my beloved FATHER
Thank YOU for the gift of the SPIRIT
Thank YOU for your guidance
Thank YOU for your LOVE
Thank YOU for the little FAITH I have in YOU
Thank YOU for all the FAITH YOU have in ME
{it takes a lot of FAITH to send someone to talk to your precious CHILD}
Thank you for making me think about everything I have to be grateful for.
Being stubborn as I am
I am sure I will dwell into cold and dark places again.
Thank you right now for what YOU will do for me every time I wonder off in the future.
I KNOW YOU will NEVER abandon me
I PRAY that I will NEVER abandon YOU
YOU are just a PRAYER away!
