With Spirit I Am Happy

So...do you know THOSE days?? The days when you feel WORTHLESS. 

I do.

The heartache is gigantic. Overwhelming. 

Well, I found a cure! 

Actually, 

like a sick, stubborn child - I was "fed" the medicine 

{thnx, my lovely, caring older brother Spirit}

I have a friend. We never really talk, all we do is smile to each other while in church on Sundays. I LOVE her! She is sweet, kind, caring. I'll call her - E!

E has been around <The Curch of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints> for a while...much longer then I. 

She is faithful and strong. 

She is not a member-YET

Few months ago she asked me how did I decide to get baptized. 

I gave a very lame testimony. 

Two days ago, after wrapping up my work, I laid down in my bed, looking at the sky {ceiling}...just thinking of - nothing! 

My lovely friends! 

A thought appeared in my mind out of nowhere - write to E! She is still waiting for a decent answer! 

Instantly, I was in front of my computer again, typing. 

Within 2 minutes I had an email composed - I just wrote and wrote...

...words, sentences, testimonies...

flooded my computer screen...

I typed

Spirit dictated

I sent that email. 

Soon enough she replied.

She cried. 

She was truly touched.

She shared with me her concernds.

The reasons why she is not baptized yet

I replied

And I was 

HAPPY

I listened to the little voice

I shared my testimony

I talked about Gospel

And all of the sudden, the world was no longer COLD and DARK place

It was 

BRIGHT

   WARM

       HAPPY

          LOVING

               JOYOUS

I reached out to help someone...and in the process, I helped myself! Magic formula I guess!

Thank YOU my beloved FATHER

Thank YOU for the gift of the SPIRIT

Thank YOU for your guidance

Thank YOU for your LOVE

Thank YOU for the little FAITH I have in YOU

Thank YOU for all the FAITH YOU have in ME

{it takes a lot of FAITH to send someone to talk to your precious CHILD}

Thank you for making me think about everything I have to be grateful for.

Being stubborn as I am

I am sure I will dwell into cold and dark places again.

Thank you right now for what YOU will do for me every time I wonder off in the future.

I KNOW YOU will NEVER abandon me

I PRAY that I will NEVER abandon YOU

YOU are just a PRAYER away!